July 22, 2010

Dear Alex,
Yesterday i was just miles away from you. I imagined you getting ready for the baby sitters, eating breakfast, maybe watching cartoons. I asked Daddy if I coudl sse eyou while Iw as down there, but he said no...

I could see your smile; your chubby cheeks looking back at me. I could see my eyes on your face, behind those glasses, looking back at me. I could hear your laughter, and hear you yelling "Mommy! Mommy!" as you ran up to me. But i knew i wouldnt see them in real life, just in my head.

I could feel you curled up on my lap while I gave you goose bumps, and laughing as i snuck in some tickles. I could feel you nuzzling up to my chest and smiling at me. Your so big now, but you will always fit perfectly right there.
Sometimes i think you know; there is a part of you that will always be inside my heart, and when you curl up on my lap, your connect to it. Its like there is a lost piece, that only you and I know about inside my heart, and when you lay against me, its complete.

I miss you so much. More then anyone will ever know.

I love you baby,
Always,
Mommy